I WAS WRITING A WELL THOUGHT OUT BLOG ENTRY ABOUT THE FACT THAT UNLIKE NORMAL PEOPLE WHO USE DRIVE TO FUEL THEIR AMBITIONS AND ACCOMPLISH STUFF, I DON’T.
I USE FURY. A COLLECTION OF FRUSTRATIONS, ANGER AND GENERAL RAGE TO ACCOMPLISH GREAT THINGS IN MY LIFE. IT SOUNDS STUPID BUT ITS SOMETHING THAT’S ALREADY TOO INTERTWINED IN MY BODY TO CHANGE AT THIS POINT.
BUT THERE WAS A SPLIT SECOND BLACKOUT THAT FORCED MY PC TO CRASH AND I CAN’T RECOVER THE TWO THOUSAND WORD ENTRY SO IM JUST GOING TO DO IT AS SHORT AS POSSIBLE.
THIS IS FURY. IT IS THE NECTAR IN WHICH I FEED ON. I ALREADY MENTIONED HOW I GOT IT, READ UP ^
MOST PEOPLE THINK IM ALOOF AND JUST TELL PEOPLE TO KEEP CALM AND CHILL OUT TO RELAX. BUT WHAT THEY DON’T KNOW IS THAT I KEEP ALL THAT STUPID SHIT THAT IS FRUSTRATING AND ANNOYING AND GENERALLY FUCKING RETARDED AND USE IT TO FUEL MY RAGE. I THEN USE THAT RAGE. BUT INSTEAD OF PUNCHING PEOPLE OR KILLING THEM OR HURTING THEM I USE IT TO DO CREATIVE STUFF WHICH IS ALSO PRODUCTIVE.
Yes I use anger to become productive. It sounds stupid yeah? Deal with it.
BUT FOR SOME REASON I LOST THAT DRIVE LATELY AND WAS JUST CATHARTIC. IT WAS FUCKING RETARDEDLY FRUSTRATING HOW JUST NOT CARING ABOUT ANYTHING I WAS. WHICH WOULD HAVE BEEN GREAT FUEL FOR MY RAGE IF I WAS ABLE TO USE IT IN THE FIRST PLACE.
IT WAS BECAUSE OF SOME STUPID SHIT WITH SOMEONE.
BUT SOMETHING HAPPENED AND SOMEONE THANKFULLY SPARKED THE RAGE BACK INSIDE ME AND NOW I AM ANGRY AS FUCK.
I FELT SO COLD THEN. BUT NOW THAT IT’S BACK, IT FEELS PLEASANTLY WARM HAVING THIS RAGING TORRENT INSIDE ME, SEETHING AND BEGGING TO BE UTILIZED.
I’M HOPING THAT THIS ANGER KEEPS ON RAGING INSIDE ME AS IT DID ALL THOSE YEARS AGO AND NEVER STOPS. I WANT TO USE IT TO ACCOMPLISH THINGS.
SO THANK YOU TO YOU WHO SOMEHOW MANAGED TO SPARK THIS ANGER BACK IN ME. YOU PROBABLY DON’T KNOW WHAT YOU DID AND I DONT KNOW HOW, (actually I probably do know but dont want to talk about it) BUT EITHER WAY THANK YOU.
ALSO YOU ARE A CUNT, JUST SAYING.
Goddamn that entry was really long, sure but It was well thought out and I was pouring out my feelings. I guess it was boring anyway. So here’s something shorter.
Thanks for reading.